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Mar. 23rd, 2017 @ 11:36 am Cadillac Lounge

So I'm sitting here in the waiting room for us Customers getting their car serviced. I'm the youngest person here. Basically when I walked in here it was senior citizens talking about their European train riding experiences. The funny thing is I don't get an exclusive vibe here but just people who were born at the right time.

They were talking about how these "modern" chairs were hard to get out of & are uncomfortable. I don't know but this kind of makes me not want to buy a Cadillac even if I had the money for the V series. I'll hang with my German cars & look cooler & more important.

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Mar. 19th, 2017 @ 04:09 pm Hanging out on a Sunday

I should be home in front of my TV watching basketball, but I'm here at a craft beer shop drinking a craft pop/soda & listening to some cool tunes from the owner (although I've just put on Coldplay on my Spotify) https://open.

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Mar. 16th, 2017 @ 06:11 pm March Madness

So I had today off & took tomorrow off.

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Feb. 27th, 2017 @ 01:15 pm Coming back from Sarasota

So no firer class for me, I'm heading back in "middle class" 1st class which is Delta Comfort.

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Feb. 24th, 2017 @ 02:23 pm New App Post
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So I'm trying the new version of this app.

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Jan. 1st, 2017 @ 12:16 pm Happy New Year
I'm still alone & it looks like I'll be in perpetuity. It's funny how sometimes you get your hopes up & then the same result happens but you're not feeling despair when they come crashing down as only mostly known that feeling.

So my sort of ex's twin sister moved back to Buffalo from Portland as she couldn't afford to live there anymore due to the rampant gentrification. We've been friends on facebook for 8 years or so & have always had some contact ect. Sell finally after messaging her dozens of times she finally agreed to come over and hang out while drinking a few beers. She came due to the fact that I had some Mikkeller Descendents beer (she's a huge fan) so I ordered pizza & we hung out.

Later that night I ended up "completing the set" which was really weird as it was like I've been with that person before (it took some thinking not to say the other twin's name) But it was good & a warm fuzzy feeling came over me.

Then over the next 3 weeks the same elusiveness & never wanting to get together happened, AKA me being thrown back to the back burner. We text last night trying to do something for NYE & she basically drops the "I may have a boyfriend" card.

So yeah I'm still not going to beg people to be with me or hangout. At least for 2017 I own my unattractiveness & not being in the top 10 or 20 percent of choices/options. Whatever.
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Nov. 26th, 2016 @ 10:43 am Get on to the bus
So I'm going from 1st class to he city bus.

Yep I'm not paying $100+ dollars to use a private car service.
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Nov. 26th, 2016 @ 05:24 am Flying back home
Thanksgiving fun is now over. I'm on my way back home to Buffalo. I'm in my cushy 1st class cabin but I'm not too blown away by the people. I'm very grateful but this trip has put me into a state of existentialism. A bunch of people have died since I've been down here. Even my airport ride (a guy from Rochester a true work friend) lost his father.

Our time is short & ive always appreciated being able to come here. I figure it may be 100+ times in my life? People may hate on me, but honestly they get laid way more then I usually wish for. I take the good with the bad in life. I've been surprisingly chill this trip. The fun part begins now they my new season starts at work. 3 weeks without a paycheck iis going To be annoying but I'll be ok.
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Nov. 24th, 2016 @ 10:28 pm Happy Thanksgiving
So I stayed down here in Florida this year. I did it because I'm not sure how my time off will work with the whole world being messed up with the whole universe thrown in a state of flux.

I finally figured out where my dream bitchy girl (in actuality her parents) live from a crazy periscope series. It blew my mind one Labor Day when I was on the back deck of my cousin's place.

So I'm surround by rich happy families wrapping up Their thanksgiving holidays. We ended up going To a dysfunctional family up in the rougher part of the area. My mom was friends with the son's (50 yr old on disability) actually the whole family is the sister is on disability for mental issues & I live off of their father 80+ yr old pension. It's kind of a show but my mom was really good friends with their godmother and it for years.

I was going to go to the old-school dive bar but it's too smoky. So I Went to an upscale place to have a cocktail and just chill out around the corner on the patio while the wait staff tears down the place.

Current music 90's smashing pumpkins.
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Nov. 16th, 2016 @ 09:53 pm Retro reliving
So I'm on a strip of road by the beach that I used to hang out on years ago. The bar/club/restaurant whatever closed & they built a condo at this kick ass establishment years ago.

So fast forward, I'm still kind of in the same place in life mentally. Yeah post death of my sister had me scared & shaking with regards to life. I'm kind of a meh thing. I play a big whatever on social media elsewhere. I don't know what else to do with regard to a career or whatever. At this point in life I'm actually afraid of women in the sense that I know if they are interested they are for the wrong reasons & that bad + only bad thing will come of it.

Life is changing fast & in some ways it passed me by. I'm trying to fix myself just to get together & functional.

So I did get to this place & hold a Canadian conversation with these people from Quebec. I explained how Donald Trump happened using Their separatist party as an anology. I don't think they liked it.

So I am just hanging out as they speak French amongst themselves.
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