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Nov. 6th, 2016 @ 02:35 pm Seeeing what I'm missing out on
So if you have followed me here for years you know my severe shortcomings. Basically I'm not attractive in the evolutionary sense where one would project their worth to breed with & procreate. As years go by for the most part I depreciate & pulling off the BS that I do pretending to be more than I'm not gets harder.

I'm a believer in evolutionary biology/psychology. I'm not a fan of the way the world has been made safe (although that is all about to change soon in English speaking North America)

So I went out to this event at a very hyped brewery in the rich trendy part of Buffalo. I ended up confirming my beliefs in a brief time by observing some i met at another event. Knowing better is always good when that "let your guard down" voice gets overuled by reality.

Overall it still doesn't change the various facts that I'm not attractive & not good with women in the romantic sense. It would take a complete overall & a fundamental change in my mental makeup & independence.

At this post I'm just happy to see how the other half li percentage lives. Why I strike that out? Because it may be known that 20% of the attractive guys have 80% of the sex. Even here where dating is a woman's game, I'm shocked by the % of women out by themselves. Then again this is the exception not the rule. This is still at this time an island of "new urbanism" surrounded by working class poverty.

I didn't mean to solve the worlds problems but I'm here just observing as I'm trying to stay off of Facebook. Blogging/Journaling is so much more rewarding.

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Nov. 3rd, 2016 @ 04:44 pm So sick of FB
Politics & I am totally questioning the reason for validation.

It's odd how some of the journaling traits carried over form here but I'm sick of being a Pavlov dog for likes.

Oh & people are Stupid.

Honestly I've felt more accomplished banging out entries reflecting on thing in my life than 1-2 lines & a check in.

Oh I'm stick of digitally sneering st people while I roll my eyes pretending & governing myself not to go off on their nonsense.

So anyway I'm just enjoying a beer at a FB event. At least that Is something they're good at (god knows LJ meetups were abject failures)

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Oct. 19th, 2016 @ 01:48 pm Semi homeless
So I was walking around Elmwood this afternoon. I'm doing this given that I'm off of work at the moment & I wanted to be cool like the elite rich people who gentrified live here, get some exercise & get some sunshine.

So I'm waking during my first mile downtown & I stop to put my sneaker on a bench to toe my lace. Now there's some dude 's most likely homeless backpack & gear on one end. So I go to the opposite side & use the ledge. He comes running back, tells me off & says to go find another bench.

Now I'm thinking do I look like I'm a homeless dude? Yeah I'm not a wealth elite liberal in this hood but still in wearing all J.Crew & an Apple Watch. Do I really look that bad when in my furloughed underachiever mode?
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Sep. 28th, 2016 @ 07:43 pm Thin Man
So I'm here for the brewery opening. I'm hanging with the cool crowd here in Buffalo. I can't believe also that I'm comfortable with taking a #2 here.

Other than that I'm hanging on to my whatever fantasy ideal self that I have & getting some solstice with much older people hanging out in here. Other than that here is my lulu jacket.

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Sep. 18th, 2016 @ 05:11 pm It's been a while
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Jun. 22nd, 2016 @ 07:54 pm Hanging out on Hertel
It's the new Elmwood so judgement maps says. I'm not really impressed. It's mostly the same city BS except a few foreign people scattered about who are more with it than the local Americans. Yeah houses are hot here blah blah blah, but honestly it's mediocre. There are these 3 older middle aged women talking about their dating game, tinder & other assorted BS. Hardly sex & the city as I'm like "They're demanding high status men?" Yeah that sorosis on your arm is sexy.

I'm at the reference is DC/NoVA ect & this is just the same lame wage blue collar peeps trying to be trendy by "going out" honestly Cleveland had done more for itself recently with LeBron winning the NBA title than the real estate Billion that got pumped into this city.

So I wait for my panini, watch the soccer fans get pumped & listed to these women cackle & squeak!

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Jun. 3rd, 2016 @ 06:39 pm Back again at "Just Hanging out"
So in at the cool Buffalo micro distillery. This time post work. It's a after 5 crowd. Plus it's a tap takeover with my local favorite nano brewery on the taps.

I'm kind of out of place with the couple of tables of sex in the city types cocktailing it up. I'm not sure what to think I'm kind of just in a zen zone lot thinking about anything. I'm not going to be living along for the next number of months & im not sure what to think about it. I'm just happy I'll be not lonely but at he same time I'm not sure how I'll handle that.

Anyway I just sit, think about my disconnect from modern dating & social norms. How things may not not be different if I lived elsewhere & how I wasn't able to get tragically hip tickets.

But yeah I'm enjoying a beverage in some daylight & heat.

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Jun. 2nd, 2016 @ 05:00 pm Hanging out again in Canada
Well Niagara Falls Ont the somewhat burnt out town that it is. Yes in the "hood" houses go for $200k but it appears that most people if they're working are in the hotel & service industry. The main drag Queen St has as many vacancies as a burnt out rust belt town of the 90's but they're trying to streetscape it to "bring it back."

I'm in this hipsterish bar at the moment where they don't sell macro beer. No Blue or Canadian here. Just a few poor cool kids & tourists killing time on their layovers from the bus or train station a block away.

It's funny how I did get a few people pass me by on the Happn app. I guess Canadians are better versed in Texhnology? But it's cool to kick back on my day off. I got my teeth cleaned from my dentist that I've had forever over here. Given my dad had great benefits from his Canadian job & we couldn't use the health care I got braces & everything else i could get when I was a kid. He's pretty competent as most Canadians are much more educated & proficient at their jobs her most Yanks. This is from my experience & especially given I went to university with a bunch of Canucks.

But this area is so far behind Toronto & honestly it's fallen behind Buffalo in the development game. Although honestly I'll take this area over the USA when it comes to specific things. No I'm not going to speculate about the political future. But no I will NOT save anyone in a Maple dating site way. You're on your own, I'm a person not a ticket to a better leftist life.

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May. 29th, 2016 @ 12:01 am Hanging at the Goth Club
Yeah it's been a while but I'm back celebrating their 15th anniversary. They had some doubts if they were going to renew their situation but they're good for a couple of years.

I would come out here about 5-6 years ago with my late friend. After he passed away it was like the funeral when I came back to inform them of what happened. It's a great place & it's a testament to the openness of the place & how it is run.

I always had ambitions of hooking up here like I did back when my area had one. But now I just come to hang with my local academic friend.

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May. 20th, 2016 @ 11:27 pm Just hanging out
So I'm at a distillery. I heard a radiohead cover session of in_rainbows & I just had to take off early. They weren't they great & for some odd reason there were too many hippies & other assorted people I really don't care for.

So this place is hyped & I decided to check it out. The one guy who owns most of the buildings here is trying to make this area fallen, but other than the casino & when there are events at the arena it isn't really at night.

But anyway I just sit here & blog. It's not like I had anyone to do anything with in this country?
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