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Dec. 31st, 2017 @ 12:02 am So my family peace has been disrupted

I ended up getting dragged into seeing some jazz singer I The redneck town a 25 miles south of here.

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Dec. 14th, 2017 @ 12:41 pm Flying down to the SRQ 1st

So I’m finally on my way back to Sarasota after a nine month hiatus.

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Dec. 11th, 2017 @ 11:08 am Going to see the national this afternoon
I can't wait to see The National this afternoon & specifically to hear "Day I Die" Especially for these lyrics:

I don't need you, I don't need you
Besides I barely ever see you anymore
And when I do it feels like you're only halfway there
Young mothers love me even ghosts of
Girlfriends call from Cleveland
They will meet me anytime and anywhere

A few years ago I was in a pretty shitty place mentally. The sad part is that it's pretty much my fault due to the fact that for a couple of reasons 1. I took the "character" that emerged on social media too literally 2 I got pulled into other people's sphere too easily.

The second reason is why i cannot be involved or in a relationship with a woman. For good measure it's also good for me not to be friends with someone of the opposite gender. It just happens that when I was friends with this young mother from that part of Ohio, I did get my mind F'd with & the worst parts of any possible relationship (or lack therof)

The scatterbrained self then doubled down on the IG & Twiter "Character" which caused me to spiral in making stupid decisions. It has taken me 3 years to climb back to where I was financially.

I guess there is another part here and that's another set of lyrics off of the new album:

It's nobody's fault
No guilty party
We just got nothing
Nothing left to say

I'm the way I am, It's tough to know that you have to stay away from the vast majority of people because you're defective. It's just something I have to do & be a proactive in my avoidance. At the end of the day we do what comes naturally, it is what it is. There is no reason to be mad just reference the paragraph above's lyrics.
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Dec. 4th, 2017 @ 04:23 pm Here’s the thing

I don’t care about love, relationships &/or sex anymore.

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Nov. 18th, 2017 @ 09:30 pm Taking it all in

I’m just in a default setting mood right now.

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Oct. 28th, 2017 @ 12:53 pm Sitting enjoying a coffee

I’m at my local coffee shop listening to an alpha Mom or something good court with her friend + daughter?

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Oct. 9th, 2017 @ 01:32 pm Meh

I’m just sitting down in the coffee place where I last saw my late friend. I’m just people watching & ease dropping. It’s s holiday so it’s busier than most Monday’s. I’m just realizing how odd I am & how I really don’t fit it. Why gives me currency is that I’m a super regular here.

Life is just in survival mode & I’m just dealing with the pain. It’s more physical at this point but if it’s caused my things I’ve experienced in my life is debatable.

Hurt by NIN Nowplaying

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Mar. 23rd, 2017 @ 11:36 am Cadillac Lounge

So I'm sitting here in the waiting room for us Customers getting their car serviced. I'm the youngest person here. Basically when I walked in here it was senior citizens talking about their European train riding experiences. The funny thing is I don't get an exclusive vibe here but just people who were born at the right time.

They were talking about how these "modern" chairs were hard to get out of & are uncomfortable. I don't know but this kind of makes me not want to buy a Cadillac even if I had the money for the V series. I'll hang with my German cars & look cooler & more important.

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Mar. 19th, 2017 @ 04:09 pm Hanging out on a Sunday

I should be home in front of my TV watching basketball, but I'm here at a craft beer shop drinking a craft pop/soda & listening to some cool tunes from the owner (although I've just put on Coldplay on my Spotify) https://open.

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Mar. 16th, 2017 @ 06:11 pm March Madness

So I had today off & took tomorrow off.

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